By David Marcus
For those who aren’t aware, I was eliminated in my Olympic debut in London this past year. Chrevi’s Capital and I were performing our grand prix test in the Olympic stadium during a horrific downpour. Unfortunately, Capital spooked and I was eliminated when we were not able to continue our test within in the 20-second time allowed. As there are only three riders per team and all three scores counted for a team result, my individual elimination meant that the Canadian Team was automatically eliminated as well.
To give you an understanding of what happened, I’ll start by saying that it was a “perfect storm” of many things, starting with the weather. When I watched the video play back, I realized how extreme the weather was that we had to ride in. Rain, wind, hail. It was weather that I would not hand walk my horse in, or even allow him to go out in a paddock, let alone ask him to perform at his best at the Olympic Games!
I also can’t stress enough how noisy it was in that 23,000-spectator stadium. The stadium seating was so vertical; it had to be built almost straight up with temporary seating and all of the scaffolding that was necessary to build the structure and stairs created noise in the arena unlike anything I have ever heard. Add that to the fact that it had started pouring rain and people were trying to get in and out of the seating areas, putting up umbrellas, pulling out jackets and hats, trying to get some shelter from the heavy rain . . . it was just stimulus overload!
Capital couldn’t concentrate and when he lost concentration, he went into ‘panic mode’ and was petrified beyond reason. By the time he came back to me, I had exceeded the 20-second time limit you are allowed for disobedience in the ring. He is such a trusting horse that I could have gotten him to concentrate on his job again, but not in the allotted time of 20 seconds.
Facing the media in the mixed zone immediately afterwards wasn’t as difficult as you might think, mainly because I hadn’t processed all of the emotions yet. I wasn’t angry or upset with my horse. I was just shocked and disappointed. “Did this really just happen?” was what I was thinking to myself. I really felt like it was out of my control. I’m not sure if or what I could have done differently.
I felt extreme disappointment for my owners, my sponsors, my team and my country more than I was feeling disappointment for myself. I felt that I had let everyone down, including all the people who had flown in to watch and cheer us on. My teammates were very supportive and helped me to accept that there was nothing I could have done to change things in that moment.
It had happened and now it was time to figure out how to move forward. We spent that evening in London surrounded by family and friends and supporters and we all commiserated together about what an unfortunate turn of events it had been.
While grieving is an important part of the process, it’s also important not to dwell. While it was difficult, I tried to be positive and concentrate on moving forward. The next day, I started to ask myself, “What’s next?” I spent time thinking about what would be the next step in this horse’s career. How would we go forward and what would our goals be? Being a very goal-oriented person, that was an important step for me. To do that, I needed to have a goal. So, I got on my horse and started training again for the future with my eyes set on the 2014 World Equestrian Games in Normandy, France.
The next stage was very important for me. Upon my return home, after Capital had a short break, I began to concentrate on Dressage at Devon at the end of September. I felt that Devon would be an important step in Capital’s career. It is a big show in one of the largest stadiums we have in North America with a lot of atmosphere. I felt it would be important for him to have a positive experience there, having had such a fright at the Olympics.
With Devon as my goal, we began to work backwards. Building his confidence was my focus. We went to the CDI-W NEDA Fall Festival in Saugerties, New York, which I felt would be good preparation for Devon. It was the first time I had competed Capital after the Olympics and I was nervous. I didn’t know what he would do in there. I wanted to give him a positive experience. I felt I owed him that after what happened in London and I didn’t know what his reaction would be. I think it’s normal to feel that way after what we had gone through.
When he went into the ring in Saugerties for the first time after London, he didn’t put a foot wrong. It was a huge relief to know that he hadn’t lost his confidence. He went in there and listened to me on his first time back and I thought, “Okay, we have something to work with here. All is not lost.”
Having worked on building his confidence back up, we got to Devon and we won the Grand Prix test! I thought to myself, “We are not only talking about moving forward, now we ARE moving forward!”
As I write this, we have now done six shows since the London Olympics. I believe in my horse and I believe that London really was an unfortunate one-time situation. Having said that, I do believe that Capital suffered from what we humans would refer to as Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder. As a result, we’ve carefully picked the shows that Capital goes to and when. I don’t want to avoid situations that might make him a little anxious. Instead, I want to take him into situations like that so that I can train him and build him up and let him know that he can handle those types of situations in the future.
My Olympic experience took some thought and time to recover from and there was great disappointment involved. But I think anyone involved with horses at any level, be it an amateur, a junior, a recreational rider or a professional, and has to be able to go through ups and downs in their riding career. It’s all part of the journey.
About the writer: David Marcus made his grand prix debut in January of 2012 and, six short months later, had earned a place on the Canadian Dressage Team for the 2012 London Olympic Games. He operates David Marcus Dressage, a full-service training facility, just west of Toronto. In the winter, he is based in Wellington, Florida. David, 32, currently campaigns Chrevi’s Capital and Don Kontes at the grand prix level for owner Deborah Kinzinger.
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